Sheesh. Just realized I haven’t done a post in over a week. Not bad, but not great. Being a mom has really made my priorities change. I’ve been a lot more focused on Everett and his schedule lately instead of taking time for myself (and my blog).
It is very easy to get bogged down with mom thoughts. Very easy. Am I doing everything right? Is he happy? Am I a good parent? I could go on and on…
The last few weeks Ev has been doing a bit of sleep regression and is getting up once or twice a night. After having a great sleeper since eight weeks, this has thrown us for quite a loop. I keep thinking: he has a bit of a cold, he’s teething, he’s going through a growth spurt, he’s hungry, he’s dreaming, he’s entering a developmental milestone (crawling). Literally thinking about anything and everything that it could be. Truth is, it could be any of those things. Or none. Who knows?
I have been getting up and nursing him back to sleep because nothing (and I mean NOTHING) was working. No binkie, no snuggle, no lovie, no rocking, no sound soother. Nothing. After realizing that he was starting to create a waking pattern and expecting to be fed, we let him cry it out last night for the first time. It was rough on both mom and dad. A full hour of him crying at varying levels. But we made it through and he finally soothed himself back to sleep.
I went in this morning after he woke up and sweetly said, “Good morning Everett.” His response: a big gummy grin.
[a scene from this morning: darn cute kid]
I have no clue what night two will be like, but we are going to roll with it. I’m hoping this is just a phase. Until then, I’ll be the mom drinking a coffee and wearing sunglasses until I sit down at my desk.
As moms, we are all just trying to do what’s best for our children. Such a tough gig, but I wouldn’t give it up for anything!
[Did you go through this with your little ones? I’d love to hear your story!]